I have no idea whether what I'll write now has anything to do with any of you, my readers, but I just need space and, in this case, words, to express my inner self. I know that tomorrow i'd be looking at this post and laughing at myself, but deep down I'll know and probably understand what I was going through.
So here goes:
The feeling of being 'Sad'.
hmm, Sadness. Such an awful awful feeling to go through. Unfortunately, that's what I'm going through right now. No idea why though. All I know is I hate every second of it. And by 'it', I'm referring to me being 'Sad'. Yes, I'm a very random person. Just by writing the previous sentence I'm being random. I'm afraid I have come to a point in which I don't make sense at all. I don't even know what to write next. Here's a thought, let me write of what feeling I want to be in right now. (If that's a way to put it.)
I want to be 'Happy' , and jubilant. I want to spend each and every second of my life with a huge smile printed on my face. For those who know me would think that's what I am most of the time; Happy. I am, I'm too happy to be frank. To the extent that the slightest of things could shift my mood upside down. My mind is too twisted to realize whether that's a good or bad thing.
I'm indeed very thankful for everything I currently have and posses. I love my life, and I have everything I need and more. I feel guilty for being oh so ungrateful. As I said, i'd look at this post tomorrow and laugh, or probably slap, myself.
I'm really looking forward for 2010. I have a strong feeling that it'll hold changes, big changes, and good ones at that. And until then, I'll just stick to my plastered smile that'll hopefully stay in place.
-Masquerade.
No comments:
Post a Comment